Chemotherapy

Well tomorrow is another big day. Tomorrow I start chemotherapy. While I do have some anxiety about the procedure, I pray that I will be fine. For now, I know that I will go every Wednesday for awhile and receiving a relatively low dose and evaluate how I handle the medications.

A lot of advancement has been accomplished over the years in breast cancer. I know that the "cocktail" I will be receiving along with the bone saving medication I am receiving, I remain positive that I will be fine. I truly ask for your prayers in the morning that I may decrease my anxiety and increase in strength to handle the chemotherapy. My mortal protector (Mike) and rock will be with me which definitely helps.

Here's my shout out. There is something about having my husband with me that comforts me. When he tells me "I got you" when I'm afraid that I'm about to fall, I trust that I will not fall. When he tells me that "We are in this together", I know that he is in this battle and on this journey with me. I can cry with him and I can laugh with him...and I can just be quiet with him. I say this to know in my heart that he is truly my soul mate and the man divinely created just for me. I am so lucky, blessed and thankful that he found me. Isn't God just amazing!!! I attribute these qualities in Mike to God's ability to uniquely create.

Listen...everybody has their shortcomings...even me (Go figure!) But, to my married friends, my single friends who want to be married, and anybody else in the midst or in want of a relationship, there is no such thing as a perfect mate. I can tell you if I had written a laundry list of the qualities my "ideal" mate would have, I would still be single...he doesn't exist. But, the qualities I did pray for were fulfilled and I accepted Mike, as he accepted me, with the characteristics that we could live with. We are 18 years in this game and we have seen the ups and downs, but we are still here.

This experience has not tested our love, but it has made us recall what our covenant marriage vows REALLY mean. We were old fashioned I guess and did not write some elaborate dissertation of how we feel for each other and we did not change the vows because we didn't "like" the word obey or any of that. We are now truly experiencing what it meant when we said "in sickness and in health, for richer or for poorer".

I am sure to write on this again because we have seen things and experiencing things in and with each other that we never would have dreamed, not even in our elder years. Love will allow you, encourage you, and make you do things that you never would have imagined...seriously.

Love to you all
Yolanda